A new idea has been germinating in my addled brain for quite a while. Here's the gist of it and how it started.
The first inkling of an idea came with clothes. I'm fifty years old and plus size. Everything I try on is designed for teens, has a certain rest home chic, has outrageous patterns, or seems designed to make me look even larger than I am. At first I thought I was being paranoid but no, it's true. Clothes that look cute on a size 6 can't simply be cut larger and look cute on a size 16. Stores don't seem to care about larger sizes. When I do find clothes that fits it's often black, navy or tan. I would like some more feminine options. Fortunately, Momma taught me how to sew. I've fallen in love with lagenlook (layered look). It's a bit crazy but it's also feminine, creative, figure forgiving, and fun. Since I sew my own it's affordable but there are designer lines. So here I am running around South Carolina wearing unusual clothes and the idea begins to expand. I got a bit miffed. The world seems to think I should be unhappy with myself and my body, dressed in dowdy clothes, while fervently trying to lose weight. I'm a child of Christ, a happy wife and mother, I have hobbies and interest. Why should my weight determine my happiness or steal my joy? Ah! The plot thickens.
I've tried every diet known to man. Nothing has worked. Around new years, when the whole country went diet crazy I thought, "you should go on a diet again". I certainly could stand to lose weight but I just couldn't handle the idea of another diet. That's when I stumbled upon the concept of mindful eating and my world changed. Mindful eating is a simple concept but it's harder than it sounds. It's a journey I would like to blog about. I would like to share my success and failures as well as what I eat -- which probably isn't diet food .
So moving forward, now I'm getting dressed having fun with my clothes and I'm trying to be mindful of my eating. I'm not trying to lose weight as much as be happy and healthy. My weight isn't an obsession or roadblock to my joy. I think to myself "if you do something other than dwell on food that might help" okay, go do something fun, something I like, something different. I quite briefly considered joining a gym but I got a cup of tea and sat down until it passed. I can move around without a gym. Every one might not like to do what I like to do but I want to share and give folks the idea to do what they like. So there it is the concept for my new blog--mindful eating, pretty clothes, accepting my body, happy movement and activities, de stressing and finding joy. The journey begins.
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